My beloved Baby passed

hkh_walter · #1 03-10-2005, 04:54 PM

This is so hard!! Tuesday March 8th at 10:17pm I held my baby as he took his last breath. I knew I loved him but you never realize how much. I feel horrible, i wish i could go back I have so many doubts things i should have done differently, tired harder. He was battling a disease caleed Blastomicosis (a fungal infection that took over his lungs) We thought we could be it and kept on with the treatments as his little body gasped for air. I thought I was doing the right thing but maybe I should have put him to sleep? But as I thing about it even though he suffered a little he got to go at home, his favorite place and in my arms. I put him on his doggie pillow and covered him up like a blanket and slept next to him for the last time I didn't want him to be alone. It was so hard to let him go, even though it wasn't him anymore. How could this happen he was only 4! I know it will eventually get easier but God bless all of you that have had your babies pass i know its hard and my prayers are with you all

tesster · #2 03-10-2005, 04:59 PM

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. You have to trust that you did the right thing. He's not in pain anymore and will be waiting to meet you again one day.

My heartfelt condolences,
Julie and Tess

Beausolei · #3 03-10-2005, 06:05 PM

I wrestle with the thought of, "will I be able to not be selfish," and hang on too long when the time comes for my babies. It sounds like you did the right thing. I cold not see just putting him down without trying, and at the same time not making him suffer when no progress is being made. I know what your feeling must be one of the most awful feelings in the world. I have lost other pups in the past, and I loved them, but none were near as special to me as my Boxers. All I can say is try and focus on good times before he got sick. My deepest sympathies go out to you. Everytime I read one of these I get a little teary just knowng that someone is hurting. At least your boy is not.

myboyjake · #4 03-10-2005, 06:25 PM

I'm so sorry about your baby. It's never easy losing our babies and even though you know he's happy and healthy now, it is still so hard because you miss him so much. So my heart goes out to you.

hanley · #5 03-10-2005, 10:20 PM

My heart goes out to you,I understand. Sending you prayers.Hanley

Austin's Mom · #6 03-11-2005, 07:00 AM

I'm so sorry about your baby. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

momstaxi · #7 03-11-2005, 07:23 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss. you'll be in my thoughts & prayers.
Michele

Julie P. · #8 03-11-2005, 08:58 AM

When Magic got sick, I was so angry with myself for not knowing, for making wrong decisions and on and on. However, the truth is, I did the very best that I could do with the only wisdom that I had at the time. I lost my very best friend and would have done nothing to hurt her. I loved her so much. My love pulled me through all the doubts that tortured me after her death. Please remember how much you love Walter when doubts and the "I wish I would have done something different" try to take it away from you. Your love for Walter can win this last battle. I say this with conviction because I went through this myself. It has been six months since I lost Magic...I still want her back with my whole heart and memories pop-up at times and nearly knock me back down but I fight the battle with my love. I know it is so hard to go through a illness with our little friends. They seem so small and helpless. I thought a million times during Magic's illness if only she could talk it would have been so much easier. Through my tears, I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet friend Walter; I wish it could have been different for you and your baby.

Magic, sweetheart, please give Walter lots of Boxer loves.
Moving Magic to Rainbow Bridge

Linda/NJ · #9 03-11-2005, 11:59 AM

I am so sorry to hear about Walter - too young to go. You will be in my thoughts.

lafsalot · #10 03-11-2005, 01:16 PM

I am so terribly sorry to hear about the loss of your precious baby. Please know that you are not alone - many of us have experienced similar feelings after the loss of our companion animals, and my thoughts and prayers will be with you during this difficult time ~ Cathy