So sorry for your loss. I know what you're going through. They don't ever really leave us though. Maybe this will cheer you up. I used to have 3 boxers, I only have 2 now since Buster passed last year. I recently was reunited with a long lost family member that came to visit me a couple of weeks ago. She commented on how well she slept and that she dreamed there were 3 boxers in the guest bed with her! Coincidence? Or maybe my boy's spirit checking in on things? I do hope the best for you. When the time is right, perhaps adopting a rescue would be in order. I have found it very fulfilling. Good luck.
Buster - Rescued male - fawn, docked, cropped, 11/1/99 - 6/7/11
Shaylea - Rescured female - brindle, docked, floppy, 12/1/02
Tyson - Rescured male - white, docked, floppy, 3/19/04 - 4/23/13