Time flies, but the pain never goes away...

christiane · #1 11-09-2006, 01:42 PM

Time flies, but the pain never goes away...
My baby Dubhe is always in my thoughts and in my heart, but as time goes by, it is like I am getting more and more far away from him...
Last 07th, it had completed 2 months Dubhe left us, and I still cry almost everyday driving back home after work.
He lived 11 wounderful years with us...We didn't lose a puppy, we lost a member of our family...a son, a dad, a brother, a friend, our best friend...
our beloved baby...That hurts so much...
Me, My husband and my daugher love animals, dogs in special.
We care a lot about the animals. We intend to get a puppy in the future, it is good have a dog at home. But I know that this will not help deal with our loss...
I don't miss a pet, I miss Dubhe, I miss him, his company, I miss my baby just the way he used to be, always with us in the good and in the bad moments, always by oursides...And this I know I will never get back....
I think that is what hurts more...
God take good care of our babies...and help us survive with the heart that broken the moment they passed away...

harlie'smom · #2 11-09-2006, 02:42 PM

Im so sorry for you loss. Ive never been thru it but i often think about the day one of my babies leaves us and it brings me to tears. Dubhe must have had a beautiful long life with you. Know that he's always watching over you. I hope your heart heals soon.

New Mom · #3 11-09-2006, 03:09 PM

Oh Christiane, I understand what you are feeling. When I lost my Jake in 2001, my world as I knew it pretty much fell apart. He was an "only child" which made it that much more painful. He was so much a part of me and my life that nothing was really the same. It's hard to explain, but as time goes on it does get easier. I still miss him and always will and would give anything to have my baby back, but now when I think about him I can smile at the memories. Tears do come at times, but mostly smiles now. It will get better for you, I promise.

I think having another puppy will help you. Of course there can never be a replacement for your baby Dubhe, just as my Jesse could never replace my Jake. But a puppy WILL wiggle it's way into your heart too, when you're ready.

We lost our Kayla (a mini schnauzer) around the same time you lost your baby. She was 11 and we still miss her. Having the other dogs though definitely has made a difference in the grieving process. When I lost Jake, I had nothing else and the pain was beyond words. When we lost Kayla, we had Jesse and Spottie and I do believe they had alot to do with recovering from the loss because they still had to be taken care of...fed, walked, cuddled, etc. In a way I guess taking care of them was like medicine for my hurt.

I'm sorry for just going on here and I don't even know if any of this makes sense. Just know that there are people here who understand your pain.

Hugs,

Marilyn

My Boxer · #4 11-09-2006, 05:46 PM

So sorry for your loss. I too am waiting for the hurt to stop. My sweet Greta went to the bridge suddenly at 10.5 years old on Oct 17, 2006. Sometimes when I am on this site, I'm so jealous and hurt because I long to kiss her sweet face, or watch her do figure 8's in the yard or just cuddle with me. Reading about other Boxers just makes it hurt more sometimes. But there are also friends here that understand our loss. Some day, when my heart will allow, another Boxer baby will come. But right now I just want my sweet Greta back. Just like you want your sweet Dubhe back. When do the tears stop?

**Jan** · #5 11-09-2006, 06:22 PM

The pain really does go away. I lost my boxer at 11 years of age too. I couldn't look at his pictures for a long time without tears in my eyes. Now I can look at pictures and smile and remember all the happy memories.

I am really sorry for your loss!

morrissey11 · #6 11-09-2006, 07:48 PM

Oh....I know how you much you are hurting, we lost Morrissey in April, he was 11 years old too.
One of the worst things is to come home and he's not here to greet us, to give all those big kisses to Mommy, daddy and Brogan, ( his human sister).
At first, I could hardly stand it, I cried so much it was actually hard to be awake, my heart hurt so much, to never see his face, to cuddle him or to kiss the top of his head...I'm crying right now. I don't think the pain will ever completely go away but it will get better I believe.
Many, many hugs to you and your family, Dubhe and Morrissey are together with all the other Boxer babies, keep telling yourself he is okay and always with you, take care, Kate, Morrissey's mommy.

Dubhe

You are very loved
Morrissey

" Loving you is easy, we do it everyday,
It's the heartache of losing you that never goes away x"

KCboxer4 · #7 11-10-2006, 07:25 AM

I am so very sorry. I do understand. It doesn't go away, but, does become tollerable. We lost Dylan three years ago and Roxie two months ago and I still cry over both of them. Know that they are at peace. They are still with you, they wouldn't leave you, not ever...

Biff · #8 11-10-2006, 07:54 AM

I am so sorry.

I can't even begin to imagine how I or DH would feel if we were to lose our Biff.

I like to think I could remember and cherish all the happy memories.

I'm sure you must have hundreds of those.

Take care, Dubhe is watching and wants to see you smiling again

(((Hugs)))

christiane · #9 11-10-2006, 11:14 AM

Dear friends, thanks a lor for the solidarity... write here and receive your messages helps a lot...
And sadly I know that you all understand very well what I am passing through beacuse some of you have lost also a very special being...
We must keep going but it is hard without our angels...
That is what I thinnk our babies are...real angels...so pure, so honest, trustable, that give us unconditional love...
I miss Dubhe just like you miss yours babies that are in heaven...
I believe one day it will be easier to deal wwith his absence but the hole that is on my heart will last forever...

I've read this somewhere I don't remember, it was before Dubhe died...it is so beatiful, I would like to share with you;

We have a secret, you and I,
that no one else shall know...
For who, but I can see you lie each night in the fire's glow?
And who but I can reach my hand before we go to bed and
feel the living warmth of you and touch your silken head?
And only I walk woodland paths and see ahead of me, your small
form racing with the wind, so young again and free...
And only I can see you swim in every brook I pass...
And when I call, no one but I, can see the bending grass.
- Author Unknown –

Dearest son, Mommy, Daddy and Gabi miss you so much...
You will be forever in our hearts....
LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!

KCboxer4 · #10 11-10-2006, 11:32 AM

That's beautiful, thank you for sharing. It is so difficult at theese times. You and yours are in my heart and thoughts. All the angel babies will take of one another, and us. Be well.