Palladia info? side effects? - Page 4

EAO76 · #37 8th May 2012, 04:18 PM

Thanks for all the responses. Trucker wouldn't eat dinner last night but around midnight he had two large milk bones and then after another dose of the appetite drug he ate two bowls of rice & chicken this morning. He was supposed to get his palladia last night but since he did not eat we did not give it to him. I thought about giving it this morning but I think I'm done with the palladia. He hasn't had it since Saturday and still seems to feel crappy so I don't want to give him more. The appetite drug causes drowsiness so he just lays around in this catatonic state. His leg gets noticeably worse daily and I know in my heart nothing is going to turn this around. I slept with him on the couch last night and he kept waking up and just licking his leg. I don't believe it doesn't hurt him. My vet said Cancer isn't usually painful but there is no way that having a melon size tumor underneath your muscle causing your lymph fluid to back up isn't painful. Also this morning he ways laying on the couch and just let out 5 or 6 whines. Trucker is not usually a whiner. I think we are going to put him to sleep on Friday. We already had an appt scheduled for his blood work & check up so I guess we will just do that instead. I just cant imagine leaving him here while we are in the hospital next week. He will just get worse and be lonely. And if anything was to happen my husband would have to take him without me and I wouldn't get a chance to say good bye.

I made a video about Trucker for the rescue 5years ago when he 1st was rescued. The song I used keeps coming on the radio. I have heard it twice in the last two days on two different stations. I just think its weird because its not a song that I hear very often. Also its been exactly 5years since we officially adopted him. We started fostering him in Feb of 07 and decided in May of 07 that he was staying. And its the same leg that brought him to us that is taking him away. We have come full circle.

Here is the video
Trucker at One True Media - share slideshows, slide shows, Facebook slideshows, free video sharing, video montages.

And here is a picture I took two days ago. You can see how he has aged.
http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l1...rucksleepy.jpg

And here is a pic from today. You can see his leg. Look at your dog's ankle compared to Trucker's. They are usually all bony.
http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l1...SwollenLeg.jpg

For those of you who have done this I just don't know how you got through it. All I picture is loading him in the car and walking him to his death. It just doesn't seem fair to him. I just cannot shake the guilt.

entelekia · #38 8th May 2012, 04:24 PM

Don't think of it as walking him to his death. Think of it as walking him to freedom.

Freedom from illness and pain.

You are doing the right thing.

*hugs*

Mama's Boys · #39 8th May 2012, 05:02 PM

I don't have any advice to offer, but just wanted to send some hugs and thoughts. I'm so sorry that you are going through this.

johann · #40 8th May 2012, 06:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by entelekia

Don't think of it as walking him to his death. Think of it as walking him to freedom.

Freedom from illness and pain.

You are doing the right thing.

*hugs*

Exactly this! You have given Trucker 5 wonderful and happy years. Try to remember him as the happy boy running around at the end of the video you posted.

Saying good bye is one of the hardest things you will ever do- but you will be giving him the gift of being free from sickness and pain.

RoxiesEcho · #41 8th May 2012, 07:44 PM

Your video made me cry but smile at the same time. It's natural to feel guilty. It's the price we pay for being human and for loving these wonderful creatures so much. You gave Trucker a wonderful life and truly saved him when he needed you. If you hadn't have been able to rescue him his life surely would have been a painful and much shorter experience. As hard as it is for us to make the final decision, Trucker will be free from pain and be able to run and play with all of the wonderful boxers that have gone before him. Give him a kiss on the head for all of us. You and your husband will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Gatorblu · #42 8th May 2012, 09:21 PM

I know it is one of life's most difficult decisions, but it is the right one. You have done everything you can. You did the surgery, you tried the pallidia. There is nothing left but to give him some peace. My heart goes out to you and your family. The video was sad and heartwarming at the same time. You gave Trucker some much needed love when he needed it most. You are doing the same now. May God bless you all.

djheitz · #43 8th May 2012, 10:03 PM

Without you, Trucker would not have had a chance. He has had a great life these last five years - years he would not have had without you and the rescue. I don't know how to express this properly, but I really believe rescue folks seem to get more years out of the years they get from our dogs, if that makes sense. What you have experienced with Trucker - the bond you formed - is just as strong, if not stronger, than many people get to experience with their boxers in twice the time.

Knowing that you shared the gifts of time, love and friendship with Trucker will help get past the pain you are experiencing now. He knows everything you have done for him since the day he arrived. He'll be watching over you...helping to guide the next boxer that needs you right to your door.

Hug him, love him, spoil him rotten for the next few days. Even knowing that his journey ends this week can be seen as a gift, if you look at it from that angle.

XOXO

Sansal · #44 9th May 2012, 04:12 AM

You are doing the right thing, setting him free from his suffering. I am keeping you and Trucker in my thoughts.

Hugs

Independence · #45 9th May 2012, 06:15 AM

Thru tears I type this. It is a curse and a blessing. Knowing you can help him to a better place where there is no cancer, no pain. I see so many humans suffering and nothing can be done. You are going to help him go with some dignity left. Treasure these last few days, love him as much as you can and everytime you want to cry think of something silly or funny that he did to help you smile. Try to keep positive for him, he doesn't know he's since and he doesn't want you to be sad. When it's over you heart will be broken but in time it will heal.

Know we've been there, we understand. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.

Bless you for giving Trucker an amazing life. The time he spent with your family was a blessing to all.

Cami · #46 9th May 2012, 06:58 AM

I couldn't make it past the one minute mark of the video. My tears were too heavy to see it and I didn't want to miss anything. I will have to go back at a later time and try again.
For some unknown reason we have been given the gift of helping our beloved pets transition from painful conditions and terminal illness. I am grateful we have this choice but saddened that we have to make it at times.
As hard and devastating as it is for us to make this decision I truly believe we are helping to return them to their perfectly healthy selves.
I've had to make the decision twice and both times I suffered immensely. The only thing that got me through was realizing that while they were alive I always wanted to take pain and sadness from them. I believe it is my mission in life to always keep my pets safe, happy and healthy.
I already know that my two girls now will eventually break my heart. Their passing in whatever way it happens will crush me but they will reap the rewards of my pain by never suffering again. As bad as it is for the humans left behind the joy of knowing they are okay at The Bridge brings comfort.
Figuring out if and when to make the decision is sometimes just as difficult as experiencing their actual passing.
So many of us here support you in spirit and wish there was something we could do to ease your pain.
You and Trucker are in my prayers.

SherylM · #47 9th May 2012, 07:50 AM

I've been following Trucker's story and I'm so sorry that it has turned out this way. The hardest part of loving a pet is having to say goodbye. You have been Trucker's angel since the day he walked into your life and you will continue to be his angel until his very last breath. I think you are right when you say he is in pain. Who could have a leg like that and not be in pain. Please don't think of it as walking him to his death. You are taking him to the other side, the side where there is no more pain, or hurting. The rainbow bridge is a place where our beloved pets wait for us, playing each day in the freedom of their new healthy bodies, without pain or suffering. You are giving Trucker the greatest gift of all, you are releasing him from all that hurts. My heart goes out to you at this very difficult time.

Tuff Love · #48 10th May 2012, 01:15 PM

Elaine I'm so sorry. You did everything you could for Trucker from the day you brought him into your home. You both put up one heck of a fight to try to get him through this. It's not easy, I know... I wish I could give you some advice on how to get through this but I was an absolute mess for months when I lost my boy. The only comfort I had was knowing he wasn't in pain any longer and he wasn't alone for the journey to the bridge. If we could only all be so lucky when our time comes- to be surrounded by those we love....
Thinking of you and your family in this difficult time.