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[SnowDove]

Originally Posted by Cyrus2005

Sending you some (((vibes))) you get good results from the MRI today. I have an idea of how you feel...I was diagnosed with leukemia in September...and I am scared too. My sister was the first person I called.

I'm sorry to hear about your battle I guess I just didn't see this coming at all... I was so overwhelmed/exhausted/stressed that I passed out in between getting my IV set and walking to the MRI room - talk about embarrassing.

At this point, I just want a clear name for my enemy; whatever it is, I'm ready to fight.

I hope that your treatments are going well and not leaving you feeling too ill... I'll be thinking positive thoughts for you!

[CrazyCharlie]

I am so glad you have talked to your sister. Sisters are a great help with these things. I understand being scared, I had to go through some proceedures to get rid of the beginings of cervical cancer. Luckily we caught it soon enough. I was 16 and it was the scariest thing I had and have ever had to go through.

You will pull through with flying colors and beat whatever it is that your MRI shows.

Lots of healthy Positive vibes headed to you!

[Snow Dogz]

Positive vibes! Hope you are doing OK!

[CrazyCharlie]

How are you doing?

[SnowDove]

Thank you to those of you with kind words during my nightmare...

After having been told that my tumor was a type of sarcoma, I was referred to an ortho oncologist in OKC (only one in the state where I live).

I'm a bit in shock at what happened there yesterday, to be honest - essentially, I learned that radiologists make mistakes and can tell people they have cancer INCORRECTLY. My tumor (an osteochondroma) is, in fact, benign. It is a type of tumor that can (rarely) turn malignant, but that has not happened with mine. I spent two weeks praying to wake up from this nightmare, and now it seems as though I have. I woke up this morning afraid that *this* part was the dream, but here I sit - cancer-free.

I'm not angry at the radiologist for his mistake; I'm sure they err on the side of caution. I do, however, find myself feeling rather depressed this morning. After some contemplation, it occurs to me that I'm feeling guilty - guilty because I got news that SO many other people want and deserve just as much (or more) than I deserved it. I think of all the children in that cancer center, and I feel like I won a lottery ticket that should have been one of theirs.

I'm hoping this feeling doesn't stick with me forever - I'm thinking maybe if I can do more volunteer work that it will help ease the guilt.

At any rate, thank you again to all of you who sent your kind words... One of the silver linings is that my sister and I have been brought closer than we've ever been throughout this experience.

Best wishes to all,
~Cathey

[RoxiesEcho]

Great news! Just the word cancer sends shivers through most people - I know because last Christmas my DH was diagnosed with a form of leukemia called CLL. He came home from the doctor with the news after a routine wellness exam. Just the few days we had to wait to talk to the hemotologist was a nightmare. Once we knew what we were dealing with, the horror of it all subsided somewhat and we decided to face things head on. Now a year later, all is well and we hope to keep it that way for as long as possible.

Thank heavens for the good news. I understand the guilty feeling but as you said, try to turn it into a positive. It's not like you have control over who gets a clear diagnosis and who doesn't.

[Gatorblu]

I'm so glad you got good news! Try not to feel guilty, it just means there is a plan for you. I am also glad you and your sister have gotten closer. It is important to have someone you can trust and support you whether is a scary test result, or just a bad hair day.

[Lisa H]

Wonderful news

[Cyrus2005]

That's great news! I am so happy for you. Plus, it's awesome you are closer to your sister now. The two of you can share each other's happy news...you cancer free, and she getting ready to have your new niece or nephew!!

[chrystel]

This is awesome news!!! don't feel guilty yay you!! what an awesome news!!!