[abby's mum]

Basically here is my life. I graduated from college May 2004 and got married August 2004. We are living at DH's parents house right now. His parents have a landscaping business that he has worked for for a long time. I also work for them. I am looking for a job in Human Resources and he is also looking for work in Sales/Marketing. I am just soooo frustrated becuase we have been looking for months and to no avail. We live in a small town that is far away from everything and are desparatly wanting to relocate. His parents aren't bad but his mom has basically controlled him (which is why he didn't look for other work before).

Another problem is that we have horses. We are trying to sell a few but we have 4 that we just cannot sell. If we find work they can stay here temporarily though. But this situation is making me crazy. All it seems like we do is argue because we are both unhappy with our situation. It sucks for Abby because she mostly stays in our room other than going for runs in the horse arena. There stupid spoiled maltese bites the hell out of Abby but if Abby plays they get mad.

It just seems like we will never get other jobs. I just don't know what to do with myself. I am getting depressed because I haven't got a job yet and we are sinking further in debt. And like I said his parents can be OK but they do not want to understand. They are just disapointed that he isn't staying and taking over there business. Everyone keeps saying "Something will come up" but it hasn't yet! I guess I just need to get this out. I just am so unhappy with my life and it doesn't seem like there is any hope in sight. If anybody has advice or anything, I would really appreciate it. I don't really have any friends (I'm shy) and I have no one to talk to.