You guys are all so great...thank you so much for all the encouragement!! Yesterday was a very stressful day for me. I spent the whole day worrying about John and where he was going to go. Although we are not together and when we were it was bad, he is my daughters father and I don't like to see him so down and out. HOWEVER...during 1 of my angry moments yesterday, I called his mother and gave her crap for turning her son away when he really needs his family. HA! Boy did I look like a fool. John has been stringing me a bunch of bull!! According to his mother, she did in fact tell him to come to her house..spend the Holidays there...find work and so on!! He's playing on my emotions I guess so I will feel so sorry for him and let him come back home! Needless to say, I woke up this morning with a new attitude! No pity for John today. My priority today is to see a worker about financial help and set up the counselling for the kiddies, most importantly, Jessica and Alex (2 youngest). Decemeber 1st is traditionally the day we decorate for Christmas. I was really not looking forward to it at all. Now...I will decorate and the kids will help...tomorrow. I am not going to let John ruin anymore Holidays for us!
Also, I spent the entire day yesterday in tears. I came to my computer and checked on BW, and I have to say it was the ONLY time I cracked a smile, and then I laughed out loud visualizing Laurie and Bev and Jen in cheerleading outfits cheering me on!
C'mon guys...no slacking!! I wanna hear the whole cheer!
Thanks again everyone. I love you guys...you're the best medicine for me right now!