Thanks for all the responses. Trucker wouldn't eat dinner last night but around midnight he had two large milk bones and then after another dose of the appetite drug he ate two bowls of rice & chicken this morning. He was supposed to get his palladia last night but since he did not eat we did not give it to him. I thought about giving it this morning but I think I'm done with the palladia. He hasn't had it since Saturday and still seems to feel crappy so I don't want to give him more. The appetite drug causes drowsiness so he just lays around in this catatonic state. His leg gets noticeably worse daily and I know in my heart nothing is going to turn this around. I slept with him on the couch last night and he kept waking up and just licking his leg. I don't believe it doesn't hurt him. My vet said Cancer isn't usually painful but there is no way that having a melon size tumor underneath your muscle causing your lymph fluid to back up isn't painful. Also this morning he ways laying on the couch and just let out 5 or 6 whines. Trucker is not usually a whiner. I think we are going to put him to sleep on Friday. We already had an appt scheduled for his blood work & check up so I guess we will just do that instead. I just cant imagine leaving him here while we are in the hospital next week. He will just get worse and be lonely. And if anything was to happen my husband would have to take him without me and I wouldn't get a chance to say good bye.
I made a video about Trucker for the rescue 5years ago when he 1st was rescued. The song I used keeps coming on the radio. I have heard it twice in the last two days on two different stations. I just think its weird because its not a song that I hear very often. Also its been exactly 5years since we officially adopted him. We started fostering him in Feb of 07 and decided in May of 07 that he was staying. And its the same leg that brought him to us that is taking him away. We have come full circle.
Here is the video
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And here is a picture I took two days ago. You can see how he has aged.
And here is a pic from today. You can see his leg. Look at your dog's ankle compared to Trucker's. They are usually all bony.
For those of you who have done this I just don't know how you got through it. All I picture is loading him in the car and walking him to his death. It just doesn't seem fair to him. I just cannot shake the guilt.