Thank you all so much (kinda long)
Thank you all for your kind words. It really helps. Its really so hard and I have not been able to move any of her things yet. The house is still exactly how she had left it. I sleep every night with her little stuffed tiger that she loved so much, it smells like her so much that it makes me feel a little better. I wanted to share with all of you what happened later Saturday after it had happened. I just planted myself out on the deck where she loved to be for hours and out of no where a little brown w/ black striped butterfly appeared so similar to Lilly's colors it was what I noticed first. This butterfly flew around me for, it had to have been over two hours as I sat there and cried. It landed next to me, then on my shoulder and just never left my side. I honestly feel that my little girl sent me that butterfly to let me know she is ok. Butterflies were her favorite things and we spent many days out side playing with them and chasing them. She was so facinated by them that she would watch them intently for as long as they would let her. Right as the butterfly left me it made a circle around the table and stopped right where Lilly always laid in the sun and then flew down around the tree where her rope was tied, stopped again where she laid in the shade when she was too hot to lay in the sun, then came back to me and flew up into the sky. I don't know if I had ever believed in any of this but it made me feel so good inside and just a sense of relief that she was ok. So thank you all so much for all your thoughts and prayers. I just felt like I should share that with all of you.